I've always been a person who thinks too much and concentrates too hard. This can become vexing, because you can never relax. I would build up huge amounts of stress. Seeing as I was the oldest of three brothers and had only an older sister, I had no way of stumbling across pornography or talking to a sibling about masturbation.
I remember the first time I really noticed one of my erections. I was watching television late at night when I wasn't supposed to. I watched this movie called "Porky's," and this girl and guy were having sex in the locker room. It felt good, but I didn't know what to do — I usually just waited erections out. I felt like it was just another crappy part of life.
Then in 4th grade we had a sex-ed discussion where we just sort of nibbled around the edges. Most kids just asked questions to get the teachers to say "dirty" things. But I was curious about something, so I asked, "What would happen if a girl sucked on a boy's penis?" This shocked the teachers, and they kept asking me why I asked. They thought I saw it in a movie or something. But I was just wondering if that ever happened — I thought it was just some new concept I thought of. But then I had this incredible curiosity to find out what sex was like.
In 6th grade I made out with my next-door neighbor, Jessica. It was incredible. She was a year older than me and was quite the explorer. Her breasts were small, but they were the only ones I had ever touched. She started grabbing my penis, and it felt really good. But then she moved, and I didn't have a girlfriend for some time. In 8th grade we really got into in-depth talks about sex, which just made me want it even more. This is when I figured out that people have sex for pleasure as well as procreation. And the summer after 8th grade I had this new girlfriend who was sweet, but we never did anything, which drove me nuts.
That summer I went on a family trip to the beach. One night after I met this girl who was almost perfect, I got the biggest erection ever. I was in the cottage all by myself, and it was late at night, so I decided just to lie in bed for a while. My hands just kind of glided down my chest and into my boxers, and I took my thumb and pointer finger of each hand and just started rubbing the sides of my penis, and it felt so good. I started doing it faster and harder, and my penis felt like it was going to explode. Then I felt this tingling throughout my body, and I moaned and fell asleep. I did this every night I could.
During my freshman year I thought I was the only kid who knew of this fascinating sensation, so I didn't say anything. Then after health class, I found there was actually I name for what I was doing. I was shocked to learn other people were doing the same thing. But I thought none of my friends did, so I didn't talk about it. Then one day in class, this girl was talking about how she said she saw her cousin "jerking off". I didn't know what it was, so I asked my friend, and he said it was when you make a fist around your penis and "jerk" to "get off." So the next night when I was playing with myself, I tried this new technique, and it was like I had discovered gravity. I was so amazed at how good it felt — it well surpassed my old technique.
As time went on, I started trying different techniques and finally got some porno. For the longest time I relied on Victoria's Secret catalogs. But then my dad got us a computer with the Internet, and guess where he put it — my room. It was like a divine gift. I could now go online and find pictures of naked ladies and people having sex. But what really got me off were oral-sex pictures. I couldn't get enough of them — I still have about 500. Then I found videos on the Web, which made the pictures look like nothing. But I really needed to get some oral sex of my own. I could never talk any of my girlfriends into it. They always said it was too gross, and that if I wanted it so badly, I should do it myself. They probably didn't think I'd take them literally.
Now I was on a mission to suck my own penis. Believe me, I tried so hard at first, but I was going about it the wrong way. One night I was absolutely determined to orally satisfy myself. I remembered having seen an episode of "America's Funniest Home Videos" in which a kid played the trumpet with his legs behind his head while he drummed on his butt. So I figured if I could do this, I might be close enough to touch it. So I did, and I finally did it, but it wasn't enough. All I could get in was the tip of the head, and every time I would get an orgasm, I would have to move quick before I ejaculated into my mouth. I was afraid to taste my semen. I had two obstacles — first, I had to stop fearing the taste of my semen, and also I had to be able suck more of my penis. The first step was the easier one. I just needed to get the will power to ejaculate into my mouth, and after I did i,t I really like the taste. I couldn't get enough. I drink it all the time. I don't believe in wasting valuable protein my body will make every day anyway. The next step was hard, but I got a little more in there and am constantly perfecting it. Any who wish to try this challenge I encourage it. The rewards are worth it — no girlfriend required. They make it easier, but don't let them hold that over you.
[Please note that only a small percentage of the population can reach their own penis with their mouth. Many people have hurt themselves trying. Unless you are very well endowed or are unusually limber, don't get your hopes up — and never try so hard that it becomes uncomfortable. -M.J.]
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