24 times in 24 hours

I masturbated to orgasm for the first time in July 1987. I was 12 years old. I was washing the small amount of pubic hair I had, and noticed that my penis began to get erect. I rubbed my penis with soap using a "two hands praying" method, and it felt very different from how I had remembered it feeling just a few months earlier. Soon I felt my penis becoming very sensitive -- almost ticklish. It felt like I was going to urinate, but more intense. Since I was in the shower anyway, I wasn't that concerned if I did actually did urinate, so I kept rubbing myself. A small amount of semen shot out from the soap bubbles. My penis immediately went soft and became too sensitive to touch anymore. I knew what had happened, because a couple of years before, I had seen someone masturbate to orgasm. Still, I was kind of scared by this weird feeling of relaxation I had afterward.

About 2 days later, I had the urge to do it again, so I did. I used this same hand method until I was about 14. Sometimes I would try to quit masturbating, because I wasn't sure if it was okay to do every day, but the urge always got to be strong enough where I had to. During the first couple of years, I really only enjoyed the feeling that came right before the ejaculation. The "two hands praying" method that I was using made my penis too sensitive to continue rubbing during or after ejaculation. I stopped using this method because of this. I then found that I could put on an old pair of sweatpants or pajamas and rub my penis through the cloth with my knuckles. I also used the method of wrapping my index finger and thumb around the head of my penis and rubbing up and down. Both of these methods enabled me to continue stroking through the ejaculation and after orgasm. It also became more comfortable at this time to masturbate in my bedroom rather than in the bathroom. I really dreaded getting caught by my parents, which created quite a sense of paranoia.

When I was about 15, my penis had grown enough that I could wrap my whole fist around it and comfortably stroke up and down, which has been my preferred method ever since. Masturbation had become daily by this time -- sometimes 2-3 times a day. I remember trying to quit altogether a few times during ages 15-16 because I heard a couple of guys saying how masturbation was something only 12-year-olds did. I tried to outgrow it, but after a few days with no orgasm, I always had to let it go. The longest I ever went without an orgasm was 2 weeks -- then I heard my older cousin talking about masturbating, and I concluded it was still okay to do it every day at my age. Later, I learned in health class that masturbation is not harmful or abnormal for anyone. I also remember them saying masturbation frequency and sex drive would peak and then decrease somewhat by the late teens or 20s. They said we shouldn't worry if we masturbated too much, because it would eventually get less. (I am still wondering when the frequency and drive will peak and then decrease!) I had sex for the fist time with a girl at age 18. I figured masturbation would decrease as a result, but it didn't. Sex with a girl just gave me more things to picture in my mind when I was alone. Plus, I now knew what it really felt like and could easily imitate that feeling. I could simulate real sex by using lubrication or lying on my stomach and rubbing my penis on the mattress.

At age 19 I lived in the college dorms for a year. I found it difficult to have good masturbation sessions there. I had a very weird roommate and didn't want to see him masturbate or have him see me. I remember hearing guys do it in the showers, which they seemed to enjoy, but I had trouble masturbating comfortably while standing up. I frequently found privacy in my car during my year at the dorms, but it just wasn't the same as being at home.

Around age 21, I reached a point where I felt my masturbation had become too much. I had a girlfriend I really didn't like, but I was too shy to tell her that. I preferred masturbation to real sex at all times. I also was isolating myself a lot from my peers for some reason. I found I could masturbate from 5 to 10 times a day if I really tried. But when I masturbated too much like this, I became nervous in public and felt uneasy around my friends. I got nervous easily and found that I walked with a tight tension. All this just lead to more isolation and more masturbation. I found myself being obsessed with the thought of other people masturbating; I was not thinking about sex at all. Once, I tried to do it 24 times in 24 hours. I only got up to 13. The last time no semen came out, and I was too tired to try again. Soon, this masturbation-too-much phase did pass when I found some new people to spend time with and stopped spending most of my free time alone in my bedroom. I also got into skating, which directed some of my energy away from "the stroke."

I always liked girls, but since the beginning I have frequently fantasized about male peers masturbating themselves or me masturbating with them. As a teenager, I sometimes masturbated with my male cousin, who was about the same age. At 23 I became friends with a guy I worked with. We started talking about sexuality and masturbation one day when we were bored, and the next thing you know, we were sitting there celebrating our masculinity by masturbating. After that, for some reason I felt more comfortable around him than my other male friends. It feels like we are related as brothers or something. I really don't feel romantic or have any desire to do other sexual things with him, but we still masturbate together sometimes. (I would recommend that anyone doing this make their intentions clear that they just want to masturbate, if that is the case.) I talked with my girlfriend about me masturbating with another guy, and she didn't seem to be surprised at all, so I never brought it up again.

At age 24, I still masturbate about once a day. I do it 2 or possibly 3 times if I'm not having sex. The "Stop & Go" [JackinExpert] method is the technique I like to use if I have the time and patience for it. I've found that orgasm intensity by masturbation has increased dramatically over the years. In my 20s I seem to be going through a "mental puberty" or something -- I can mentally control the timing and level of orgasm better than ever before.

During the masturbation process, I used to think of specific girls I wanted to have sex with or males I wanted to look like. They were usually strangers I had seen or celebrities. This has changed over time. Lately, I have been concentrating on the sensation of the masturbation process, thinking of completely imaginary people, or looking in the mirror. This seems to be a more creative and healthy thought process, because I no longer find myself with a burning desire for women I can't have or a desire to look like other males.