Man, was I ever shocked! I went to school the next day feeling as if I was holding this secret and that I was special for some reason.
- age 14, Canada
I was very confused. I had heard or "coming" or "ejaculation," but with no first-hand knowledge, I could only guess. I didn't take very long to figure out that it was a good thing, though.
- age 27, New York
I first ejaculated at age 13 while just fiddling with my penis on the bed. When the fiddling drove me to the point of ejaculation, I was filled with mixed feelings – feelings of excitement, guilt, and being overwhelmed as "energy" filled my body. The thought of being able to produce young at this point in my life also entered into my mind. But, the feelings were SO GOOD that they have made me become "addicted" to masturbation, and ever since I've masturbated almost daily.
- age 14, North Carolina
I felt like the gates of Heaven had just opened, the earth surged through me, and the oceans plowed my breath away.
- age 25, Mississippi
I thought, "Holy sh** – what's this?! Then I realized what it was. Boy, did I feel like a man!
- age 21, Florida
The first time I ejaculated I felt two things: one, extreme pleasure, and two, a little dirtiness. I didn't exactly know what had just happened, and all I wanted to do was take a shower!
- age 16, New York
It was weird ... I had been masturbating for about a year, so I was probably 12. I was home, and a had a friend sleeping over who had already ejaculated many times, and he was trying to get me to do it. I was in my sleeping bag masturbating away, and my friend was telling me to picture naked women, etc. Then it happened. I could feel a warm tingly sensation in my penis that spread throughout my body, and I was in feeling so good. Then it got really warm and came up. My first ejaculation will always be remembered as my best – ohhhh, that felt good ....
- age 15, Massachusetts
I began masturbating at age 11 but I didn't ejaculate until I was like 12 or 13. At first it kind of oozed out, very slowly and in small amounts. As I continued I shot it farther and farther. I was extremely happy to see the fluid that first time – I knew what it was and I wanted it desperately. When it happened I was happy, but I was also disappointed that was all there was. I had been expecting it to shoot out all over the place.
- age 17, Kentucky
I was kind of excited the first time, but I was also disappointed. I started masturbating before I could ejaculate and there was no mess to clean up; that was the only bad point. I also felt more grown up, which excited me. It was sweet and sour.
- age 16, Michigan
I was afraid to urinate afterwards because I didn't know what would come out. I felt really weird after I did it and began to wonder if any of my other friends ever did it.
- age 27, Ohio
The first time I ejaculated , It was the most powerful, manly thing I had ever experienced. My penis finally was able to make a baby, From that moment on I knew I had became a man. I was very proud of what I had accomplished – and in feeling so relaxed and so comfortable, I just laid there.
- age 15, New Mexico
I felt really nasty the first time I ejaculated. I thought I had done something wrong.
- age 16, Florida
It scared me. It felt really good, but I had never experienced anything like that. I thought, "Boy I'm never doing that again!" Yeah, right. I think I did it again the very next day, and I've been doing it pretty much non-stop ever since.
- age 40, Pennsylvania
I felt relieved and proud the first time I ejaculated semen. I was 12, and it was in front of several older guys – my brother and his friends. We were having a sleepover in a tent in our backyard. Early in the morning, someone suggested we all masturbate, so each guy in turn did it while everyone else watched by flashlight. I was last to go and was scared because I was sure my orgasm would be dry like it always had been up to that point. They were taking bets that I couldn't do it either. But to everyone's surprise, I ejaculated a little puddle of semen. It was the best feeling – not just the orgasm, but the fact that I was now one of the guys.
- age 22, Texas
The first time I ejaculated it was weird. I was 11 and had no idea what was happening. Every time I would rub myself I would feel good and then I would feel like I had to pee. So when it came to that I would run and stand by the toilet and wait for the pee, but it never came. So finally I jerked the head a little and it shot out. It made me feel so good I started doing it every other day, and now I do it every day. I think it is great and a good way to relieve stress.
- age 13, Mississippi
Well, it felt great, that goes without saying. But I also felt both astonished and enlightened – in one instant, in one blinding flash, all of a sudden sex made SENSE! It's like there was one piece of the puzzle missing, one crucial bit of information I didn't have in order to really understand what sex was about. That first orgasm provided it, and how! After all these years, I still remember it vividly, lying in my bed with this incredible *feeling* gradually fading away, and thinking, "So THAT'S why it's such a big deal. Well! No wonder!"
- age 40, Louisiana
I felt like I had sinned.
- age 15, Florida
I think any father really owes it to his son(s) to tell them about masturbation – to tell them what to expect and that it's perfectly normal and a healthy thing to do. My dad never talked to me about sex, and I didn't have an older brother to tell me about masturbation or ejaculation or wet dreams. It happened when I was 12 years old – I was taking a shower and had an erection the whole time, so I way playing with my penis, rubbing soap and then hair conditioner up and down on it. All of a sudden, I got this feeling like I needed to pee really bad (the only thing my penis had ever done for me up to that point!), and then *BOOM* all of this thick white stuff began shooting out. It felt great, but I was scared to death! I thought maybe I had ruptured something inside. I thought maybe blood was going to come out of me. I had no way of knowing that it would last only a few seconds. I imagined having to hold a towel over it and having to call out to my parents for help. I was afraid I would wind up in the emergency room or that they would punish me if they knew I had been "playing" with myself. I was so scared by the whole thing that I swore to myself I would never do it again ... HA! Just two nights later, again in the shower, I did it again just to see if I could – and I've been enjoying masturbation for the past 22 years now.
- age 34, Texas
It felt like a blast of energy shooting out from my penis.
- age 25, Washington
I had my first ejaculation when I was 12 years old. At first, I was kind of surprised and thought, "What the...!" But as soon as I completely grasped what had just occurred (a few seconds later), I felt very proud and happy. It was like I was now a "man" (though, most likely, that first semen contained no sperm). I remember experimenting with the semen closely examining the texture, color, smell, etc. I was, however, somewhat unhappy about starting to ejaculate, as it meant from that moment on I'd always have to clean up afterwards. To date, I still find this an inconvenience most of the times (I guess I'm just lazy, but I get so relaxed after I'm done that I don't feel like doing absolutely anything else for a long while).
- age 19, California
I felt giddy! I also began to wonder if I'd somehow wasted some kind of natural resource. If that's true, then by now I must have lain waste to entire solar systems.
- age 32, United Kingdom
It felt great, yet I was afraid I had done something only adults were supposed to do. But I wanted that great feeling over and over. The first time I tried mutual masturbation, with a friend, it was even better – although I did feel guilty. But I still continued until we were 15, at which point girls came into our lives. I am glad young people today don't have all the hang-ups we did back then.
- age 53, Texas
I had been masturbating without ejaculation for several years. Soon after my 14th birthday I was lying in bed fantasizing and stroking my penis when I had a feeling I had never experienced before. I felt like something was going to come out of my penis, but it didn't seem exactly like I needed to pee. I got up and quietly but quickly walked to my bathroom. The funniest thing is that instead of using the toilet, I got into the bathtub and sat there! I suppose I didn't know what or how much was going to come out, so I was prepared! I kept stroking, and very soon I had my first full orgasm and ejaculation. The feeling was incredible as shot after shot of this strange new white stuff blasted out of me. I knew that it was semen, so I wasn't afraid anything was wrong – but it also was a suspenseful time to be shooting off for the first time. I've been doing it regularly ever since!
- age 26, North Carolina
I first ejaculated when I was 13. I was surprised mainly, but it was a feeling I knew I wanted again. I thought I was going to pee but couldn't stop because it felt so good. I shook for about 2 minutes after I covered my belly with that strange white stuff.
- age 16, Wisconsin
I felt like crying – immensely satisfied, yet guilty.
- age 16, Illinois
I was using an electric vibrating massager device on my penis. I had used it before through my pants, but this was the first time I'd tried it on my bare penis. When I orgasmed, I looked down and there was a small amount of white liquid on the massager. It scared me at first – I thought there might be something wrong, since this had never happened before. I quickly ran to the bathroom to get some toilet paper and wiped the massager clean of this strange stuff. Eventually I realized this was the "sperm" I'd heard about at school. I also remember that the orgasms back then were more intense and my penis was way more sensitive.
- age 15, Oregon
I felt a sensation that totally knocked me out. I passed out, and then when I woke up I felt like I had just had the most relaxing moment in my life.
- age 15, North Carolina
I was 11 or 12 at the time. I had found an unused finger clot (which resembles a small condom). I had an understanding of what condoms were used for, so I tried this small version on my erect penis. As I started masturbating, it felt very good. I had my first orgasm ever. The feeling before orgasm was great – but during and after was scary. I ran to the bathroom and unrolled the finger clot to see what I had pissed into my miniature condom. A few drops of some white sticky substance. My penis was very sore for a couple days. I repeated the act a couple days later using the same method. That small version of a condom got used and rinsed out for about a year after that first time. I outgrew that one and started using condoms from my parents' supply. These days, I always keep a supply of condoms and K-Y Jelly handy to complete the act.
- age 28, Wisconsin
I was sitting in my bed one night – I think I was 14 at the time – and as I tried to drift off to sleep, I began to invent some kind of sexual fantasy. At the end I was left wondering: How would this story end? And I asked myself, What is an orgasm? So I got out of bed, went into the bathroom, and after some figuring, I wrapped my penis in a foot of toilet paper and began rubbing. Eventually, the paper became a hard ring, which squeezed the most sensitive part of my penis and felt pretty good. Soon I was really enjoying it, until finally ... I stopped, looked at the semen on my hand in surprise and horror. I washed myself off and proceeded to hurriedly return to my bed where I prayed to God (whom I could have sworn I never believed in) for forgiveness. It was a very bad experience for me. Luckily, I didn't stop masturbating – and the more I did it, the more I became comfortable with it. Happy ending.
- age 15, Canada
I can remember it very well, because I successfully masturbated for the first time the day before yesterday. I felt a feeling of accomplishment because I'd done it intermittently without ejaculating for a couple of years. It was a GREAT feeling, though, to have semen spurting out of my penis! Maybe it was because that was the first time I'd used lubrication.
- age 13, Indiana
I was astounded that anything could feel so intense. I was worried about the noise and mess I'd made, but most important for me at the time was: all of a sudden, EVERYTHING I'd wondered about sex made sense. What semen/sperm was; how pregnancy worked; what was going on with the condoms I used to find in my dad's drawer... it was all part of a great demystification. I couldn't wait to tell my buddies about my discovery, and we had lots of good times (and some guilt) when we'd get together and make ourselves and each other ejaculate.
- age 46, New York
I felt surprised – so surprised that I missed out on the enjoyment. Friends were telling me they could do it, and I knew I was more advanced sexually. So I set out to do it, and after ten minutes, I did.
- age 15, New York
It was amazing – I felt like my body exploded. I was 15, I didn't have any older friends or older brothers, so I didn't know much about masturbation or how to do it. I discovered it totally by accident when I was just stroking my penis. I remember thinking, "Where has this been all my life?"
- age 23, North Dakota
I first ejaculated at age 13, although I've been masturbating for a couple of years now. The first time it happened it made me feel like a real man – I remember I thought, "Gee, finally it happened." I started to masturbate even more, like 5 times a day. Whenever I had a chance I would pull off my pants and I would stroke it until I ejaculated. My semen at first looked like water, but in a few months it started to seem more creamy. Now I masturbate about 6 times a week and I love it.
- age 16, Mexico
I'd had orgasms before I ever ejaculated --- mostly tingly sensations that seemed to last forever. And I knew about masturbation from my big brother and other buds, so I was primed for my turn to come. Then one night I had a wet dream. I can remember feeling in my underwear, and as soon as I felt the sticky stuff, I knew what happened. I don't really remember the ejaculation that time, but I got up early to test my equipment and masturbated the first time to ejaculation. While I was doing it, I could feel things building up. I was worried just what to expect, so I started slowing up a little, and things would build up again.It didn't take long to ejaculate, and I remember I was surprised by how powerful and messy it was. It's one thing to ejaculate in your underwear, it's another thing to ejaculate all over your belly.
- age 19, Oregon
I felt weird and funny. I did not know what happened and wished that it had never happened. I did not like it at all and never wanted it to happen again. So then, for a long while, I never masturbated to an orgasm. But I eventually got over the problem and now masturbate constantly.
- age 16, Illinois
I was scared, as I had never even heard of masturbation. I was 12 years old and started having erections every other minute. Late one summer night as I laid in bed, my penis started getting super hard. As I reached down to press down, it feel really great. I took my penis between my hands and started to roll it back in forth, as though I was trying to start a fire by rubbing a stick. All of a sudden a huge squirt of wet gooey fluid flew out. I thought I had ruptured my bladder or something. The rush was beyond what my limited 12-year-old mind could express. In spite of my fear, I attempted it again the next night – and so began my daily habit of manhood.
- age 32, Tennessee
I never really masturbated to the point of ejaculation until last year (when I was 18). One morning after I woke up I started touching and stroking my erect penis. I then found that I could feel really good by folding my foreskin over the head of the penis back and forth. I couldn't stop doing this, and all of a sudden I felt I was going to piss. I then found semen all over my pants, and I realized I had ejaculated. Before this I used to read that you could ejaculate by masturbating, but I could not master the technique properly. I felt pretty guilty after that, but I did it again a few days later and carried on doing it since. Although I enjoy masturbating, even now after I've read this site I still feel it's a little strange doing it and talking about it here.
- age 19, Canada
I was lying on my bed stroking away because my friend told me I could get a "good feeling" doing that. Suddenly my penis began to tingle; then got this tense feeling, and then felt like it was turning inside out, but in a fantastically wonderful way. I thought, "This is what he was talking about!" Then I felt this warm stuff flowing over my hand; I thought, "Blood! I've broken something!" I rushed to the bathroom and saw it was white stuff. I knew it was "sperm," and I said to myself, "I'll never do that again." I was, of course, very wrong. I did it again, and again, and again ....
- age 47, California
I was completely amazed the first time I shot off, because I had always thought a guy had to have hair down their before that was possible. I used to ask my older brother when I would be able to shoot, and he would say when you get your pubes. This same brother would never make his bed, and many times when I was home alone I would go to his room, lie on his bed, and heap his blankets together and ride them while I looked at pictures in some of his magazines. Then one day I was doing this and POW – I had my first ejaculation on his blankets. It was a shock! Maybe the hair thing was true for him, but not me. This happened a year ago. Next year I am a freshman – I now have some hair, but you have to get up close to see it. I hope I don't get laughed at in gym.
- age 14, New York
The first time I ejaculated was not a very pleasant experience. I was about 10 or 11 and I was thrusting myself on my waterbed sheets. When I had my orgasm, I noticed this white stuff come out. I was really scared. In fact, I was so freaked out I told my parents what had happened with tears in my eyes. I told them that I thought that the white fibers from my pajamas somehow got into my urine stream! It's really hilarious now that I look back on it.
- age 17, Iowa