People who had not previously heard about ejaculation were often fearful, thinking that something in their body had broken, or that they had done something dirty. Usually, a consultation with a more experienced friend or relative would clear up any worries. A few people talked to one of their parents; others sought out trusted friends or relatives; and some found their answers in reference books. Regardless of their initial reaction to ejaculation, around three-quarters of the answers mentioned welcoming this passage into manhood, even if it meant they had to start cleaning up afterwards. Two women reminded us that females also can "ejaculate" at orgasm with a gush of lubricating fluids.]
Telling myself I was going to get my penis *really* clean, I was moving a hand-spray showerhead over the underside and enjoying some cool new sensations. I could see that my penis was growing larger under the warm spray, but it wasn't yet fully erect. I began to take shallow breaths and focused on the head of my penis until the colors around me seemed to blend into one. As the moment of no return came and went like an electric current, I became conscious of a muscular pulsing in my penis. It was a wonderful sensation that was over before I realized that I wanted to hold onto it. A clear liquid came from the tip, followed by a small dab of cloudy white stuff that ran off in the warm water. I knew then that this was my semen, it could make babies, and that I was on my way to being a man. Almost immediately, my penis went small and was too sensitive to enjoy touching for a while. Within a week, I learned how to use my hand to masturbate to ejaculation, and I do it the same way today.
- age 50, Ohio
This Week's Wackiest Response:
I felt like eating a duck.
- age 18, Virginia
I felt proud. As I look back, that seems kind of silly: "Congratulations – you just accomplished something that every male mammal can do! Give the boy a plaque!" But at the time, I felt incredibly grown up, proud that I had discovered this secret, a little guilty, and eager to do it again – and again, and again.
- age 26, District of Columbia
I knew about sex and masturbation at a young age, but I never could perfect a technique. One night when I was 12 or 13, I was rubbing my penis and it felt very good. So I continued and eventually ejaculated all over my sheets. It was one of the most intense sensations of my life, and it felt like I was consumed by pleasure. Since then, I try to masturbate at least once a day, and I will never stop masturbating.
- age 19, Pennsylvania
I remember looking down, being confused, and saying to myself, "Oh man, I must have pissed off somebody upstairs!"
- age 41, Sweden
The first time, I felt scared, freaked out, and dirty. I remember running over to the bathroom immediately afterward and showering about 3 times. After that, I tried to do a self-medical diagnosis to see if I had injured myself in any way. Later that day, I went online to check my findings, and that's when I stumbled upon some masturbation-information sites like JackinWorld. Thank God for the Internet at the time!
- age 20, New Jersey
I should probably remember, but I can't – which suggests that my first ejaculation wasn't all that earth-shaking (like my first orgasm was). I just remember that after having masturbated for a while, I then had to start worrying about having something handy to clean up my semen, which made me, for many years, a great consumer of tissues.
- age 39, Florida
One night when I was sleeping over at my best friend's house, he told me that he had been taught to do something "really neat" by an older boy at summer camp, and showed me what he was talking about. I couldn't believe how good it felt. At this time, our orgasms were not accompanied by ejaculation (I was 11 and he was 12). We had both been taught sex education at school beginning in 5th grade, but of course, they concentrated on the "mechanics" and biology of sex and didn't mention the pleasure involved (we both went to Catholic school). About 6 months later, I ejaculated while masturbating, and suddenly everything I had been taught made sense. I knew exactly what the stuff that came out was, and why even people who weren't married wanted to have sex. I told my friend about my discovery, and I found that he had also recently had the same experience and revelation.
- age 48, Illinois
I was 11 years old, and I had come across some book in my parents' room about better sexual positions and such. There was no graphic sex in the book, but there was nudity. So I was lying on my bed, wearing sweatpants and a T-shirt, and had an erection. I repositioned myself, and when my penis rubbed on the mattress, I exploded. I think it was more of a major orgasm than an ejaculation because I don't remember there being a wet spot, but it was a feeling I never thought was going to end. I felt as if I was experiencing pure pleasure, and I could feel it pulsing through my body and through my penis. I swear, it lasted at least two minutes; but it felt like hours. I woke up, I don't know how much later, and realized what had happened. I quickly grabbed the book to put it back in its hiding place in my parents' room, and I looked forward to creating that feeling again (although it's never happened again quite like that).
- age 25, Florida
"I'll never forget the little lightning bolts of
sensation in and around my penis."
My first ejaculation (at age 14) was the result of humping my mattress and took a good while – at least 20 minutes – to achieve. Looking back on it, I can't imagine what prompted me to keep humping, since nobody had told me what to expect. I was on summer vacation and driven to a state of extreme horniness by the sight of girls in bikinis, and it was that urge that kept me going. I must have imagined the thrusting and friction would feel something like sex. Anyway, I'll never forget the little lightning bolts of sensation in and around my penis as I approached climax. They impelled me to keep going, and when I reached my first orgasm, time stood still; it felt as if I was pumping gallons of fluid, especially with the smell! So much did I think I had spurted, that I took a jar to bed the next night to catch it. I was extremely cautious about the whole thing until I figured out how to masturbate with my hand. It's a good thing I did, because my penis was a little raw after the first few times humping.
- age 35, New York
I felt guilty, as if I had done something wrong. But then I did it a couple more times, and my mom told me it's completely normal; so, I felt better. She even let me get some porno, even though I was only about 14 years old.
- age 16, Massachusetts
I had heard about masturbation from other boys, and I even tried it, but I was unsuccessful. When it finally worked, I thought, "Wow, so that's it!" I quickly started to feel guilty, though, as I was raised Baptist. I made some excuses to do it again, in the spirit of "research," and even quit for 51 weeks. Finally, I got some good information from sex education texts sent to my father, who was on the school board (but which the school never used), and lost the fear and guilt.
- age 45, Pennsylvania
The first time I ejaculated felt weird and quite good at the same time. The night before it actually happened, I was in my bed imitating sex. Then a bit of clear stuff came out. I quickly cleaned it up and decided to try out the full-fledged technique in the bathroom. So there I was pumping away, feeling the most erotic feeling I had ever felt, when all of a sudden, my body just shivered to a stop (like a standard transmission car cutting out). When I thought it was all over, the feeling came back even more intensely. My semen spurted out; then it started to dribble. For a few minutes afterward, I just sat there, still in awe from what had just happened. It was the best feeling I'd ever felt. But in a nutshell, my first ejaculation was a great milestone after being able to get an erection.
- age 16, Virginia
I felt like a real man. I remember that moment I stopped thinking of myself as a boy and started thinking of myself as a young man.
- age 26, Utah
I think I was 12 or 13 at the time. I knew all about ejaculation, semen, and masturbation. I had tried for months to have an ejaculation. For a while, I got only a few tiny drops. One day, I was trying and I had my first full-blown ejaculation. I was petrified only because I had been told semen was supposed to be watery and not thick and milky. I was happy, but scared at the same time. I remember thinking, "I'll have to try again later to see if the same thing happens." I was also afraid because the head of my penis was *extremely* tender and felt weird when I ejaculated. I masturbated later that day to confirm what I suspected. Although I was still worried I had done something to my penis to make it tender, I felt better knowing I hadn't broken anything.
- age 17, California
I cannot truly put it into words, but it was an explosion of euphoria followed by a little fear. At the age of 12, I had been masturbating daily for about a month. I'd lie on my back and stroke my penis with an open hand for a couple of minutes. Then one day the butterflies in my stomach kept building, and for reasons then unknown to me, all I wanted to do was keep rubbing faster. When it happened, it was like exploding and being frozen at the same time. I saw the semen shooting out (actually a very small amount). I lay motionless for a few minutes with it on my stomach, scared that something was wrong with my penis.
- age 27, Ohio
During my 12th summer, erections were getting quite common, but I had not yet started to have "wet dreams." A few days after summer vacation began, I was sitting around with my pole out, when I felt a tingly yet pleasant sensation in my groin. Suddenly, I was certain I had to whiz. I ran to the bathroom just in time to ejaculate into the toilet. I had done nothing to reach orgasm except letting my erection hang out for over an hour. Being "a good boy," I had no idea what had just happened. I was scared, confused, and certain I had done something wrong, perhaps even evil. Strangely enough, I didn't think I had injured myself; I was too concerned with my "good boy" image to worry about my physical well-being. I said a prayer of contrition – interesting, considering that I'm not Catholic – and promised God I'd keep my penis in my briefs like "a good boy."
- age 60, Michigan
I remember imagining that I was having sex on a nude beach with a beautiful blonde. I rubbed my penis along my sheets and it felt good. Then all of a sudden, my sheets were wet. I wasn't entirely sure what had happened; in fact, I thought I had wet the bed. But, it felt great, so from that night on I have made it part of my routine.
- age 15, New York
As a child, I was not told about ejaculation, so I didn't expect anything – I just followed my nature and explored my body. I don't remember my first ejaculation, but it had to have to have happened during my tenth year, when I started to grow pubic hair. I had discovered masturbation on my own when I was eight, and had enjoyed dry orgasms regularly at night since then. That first orgasm was memorable, and to this day, I revere it – but I don't remember my first ejaculation. I do remember wiping my ejaculate on my sheets and not thinking too much about it. My mother had gotten onto my new habit even before I started to leave evidence. She vigorously tried to suppress my habit, and I just as vigorously continued to practice it (and still do to this day).
- age 60, New Jersey
Actually, I was surprised. I was with a friend of mine, who had experienced the feeling many times before, and he had just ejaculated while showing me how to do it. When I finally achieved the goal, it was an incredibly good yet shocking feeling. I felt as if I was out of control – almost like urinating on myself, or doing something I shouldn't (physically, not morally). But it was great. Of course, this fascinated me, and I took it upon myself to experience this feeling as much as possible.
- age 28, North Carolina
I started masturbating when I was 11, before I could ejaculate. I would masturbate every day two or three times, and each time I would have an orgasm, but I was disappointed that I didn't ejaculate. Then, one afternoon lying naked on my bed, with my best friend lying next to me, both of us masturbating, I started to have a very different orgasm. I swear, my hair stood up, my toes curled so hard they cramped, my knees shook, my mouth was shaking, and I raised my butt up off the bed. It was like a bolt of electricity went through me, except that it was pleasure. I watched with great joy as two drops of semen flew out of me in little arches and landed on my belly. My friend, who was 14 and had been ejaculating for months, wasn't impressed – but I felt like dynamite!
- age 17, California
My first ejaculation was from a girl I had befriended while on holiday, just before my 13th birthday. We went back to her room one afternoon and had been kissing for a while, when she pulled out my penis and started to stroke it. I don't think I lasted very long, but it was the most intense feeling I'd ever had. I distinctly remember shouting "s**t" when I climaxed, and I literally shook all over for about 5 minutes. The girl was a bit irritated, as she got it all over her hands – I don't think she was expecting me to "finish"! I never saw her again after that.
- age 32, United Kingdom
It was like fire was escaping from deep within, and all my dirty little thoughts were escaping through my penis. It was very fulfilling.
- age 15, California
It was amazing. I had just turned 11 a few weeks earlier. I still remember sitting on my bed, pumping away, when all of a sudden, I felt this amazing rush go through my whole body. It felt so good my toes curled! I ejaculated all over myself. I just sat there, astonished, and I couldn't wait to do it again. The feeling that I had the first time I ejaculated can't be compared to any orgasm I've had since then. It was my first time, so I had no idea what to expect. It completely blew me away.
- age 16, New Jersey
I was about 15 at the time. A friend had told me about it, and I had tried unsuccessfully to wank without lubrication. The first time I ejaculated was in the bathtub, while taking a bath. I used soap as a lubricant, and the climax was fantastic. However, when it was over, I was scared that my sisters might get pregnant from any semen residue in the tub. So I scoured the tub with cleanser.
- age 62, Virginia
This sounds silly, but the first time I ejaculated, I was scared that I might get AIDS. I was very young and uneducated in the matter.
- age 18, California
Actually, the physical feeling was somewhat painful given the fact that I didn't know quite what to expect. Although I had previously been with a guy as he masturbated, he did not explain to me what was happening or what it felt like. The buildup of semen before ejaculation created a certain degree of pressure that was painful at first. Even so, after ejaculation I quickly decided that the feeling was among the most pleasurable I had ever experienced. Emotionally, the experience was awesome. After I ejaculated for the first time, I realized that I was a man, at least sexually. Before, I had looked at my penis in a purely functional way. After my first ejaculation, I looked at my penis as a pleasure zone that remains to this day.
- age 36, Connecticut
My first ejaculation was just a couple of weeks ago. I was happy for two reasons: first, because I thought for a long time that my penis was broken – then finally I came to this site and it gave me some tips. I tried it, ejaculated, and I was super-happy. Second, my friends always talk about "beating it" and I always felt left out. But now I don't – I'm included in the conversations.
- age 14, Arizona
I was confused and a little scared. My first ejaculation was a "wet dream." I had no idea what to expect, or even whether it was normal. It kept happening every two or three days. After about two months of this, and fearing a medical problem, I was going to (of all things) ask my parents if I should see a doctor. But then sex education started in school. Ejaculations and "wet dreams" were explained and my fears were eased. It wasn't until months later that I learned to masturbate, and ultimately, to control my ejaculations.
- age 32, Pennsylvania
The guy across the street had showed me how to do it. I was in the bathroom, thought I would give it a try, got an erection, lubed with "Butch's Crew Hair Wax," and started stroking. I wasn't sure of the sensation and I stopped. I got into bed, got erect again, and thought I'd give it another try. This time, I ejaculated. I think I saw stars, and this electric feeling went all through my body. I doubt any guy ever forgets his first orgasm. What a rush!
- age 53, Ohio
It was the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced. Energy rushed through my entire body from my fingertips to the end of my toes, making them tingle with pleasure. How I wish I could experience that again!
- age 18, United Kingdom
I think I remember being puzzled, but it was nice – kind of tingly. I was 13 years old and wondered what this stuff was coming out of my penis. My sex education had been minimal, and it certainly didn't include any talks about masturbation. So the first time I masturbated, it was an education in itself. But it definitely was addicting. I've been masturbating at least twice a day ever since.
- age 39, California
My arm started to hurt, but still I didn't stop. All of a sudden, I couldn't breathe, and BOOM! I was kind of amazed that I had never gotten it to do that before. After I cleaned up, I remember that I couldn't walk. I wasn't scared, but I couldn't walk.
- age 19, Minnesota
Women can ejaculate, too! My first (and so far, only major) ejaculation occurred during one of my first orgasms. I was 15, I think, and it had taken a few years of consistent masturbation to get to a point that I could rub my clitoris enough to reach orgasm – it had been far too sensitive at first, and I couldn't keep going long enough to reach orgasm. I finally found a method that would let me deal with the sensitivity. I would stop and start with clitoral stimulation. On the night I ejaculated, I was shocked and horrified. It felt wonderful, but at the same time, I was scared that I had urinated all over my bed. I was afraid something was terribly wrong with me, and I became afraid to have an orgasm with a guy, for fear that I had a weak bladder and would pee on him. Because of this fear, I learned to "restrain" that impulse. It wasn't until years later that I learned it is a normal, natural part of a woman's orgasm. Try as I might, I have *not* been able to duplicate it, either on my own or with a partner.
- age 28, Ontario, Canada (female)
When I ejaculated for the first time, I was alone under the stars, and it felt like all the good feelings in the world all happened in one moment. It was something out of a fairy tale – but then, I had to face reality and clean up the mess!
- age 15, Australia
It felt so awesome. When I was younger, I humped the bed and had always stopped because I felt like I was going to wet the bed. One time when I was 14, I didn't stop. I was humping a pillow. Then I turned over and started rubbing my penis in my underwear, which was very wet. I started bucking my hips and gasping for air. I felt like I could not breathe. It was a mess, but I knew that I had found a cool new thing to do.
- age 34, California
I had been masturbating for a while by the time I had my first orgasm. And I knew all about the terms and stuff. (Having a school nurse for a mom means you get to learn the wonders of male anatomy when you're quite young.) So, when I was masturbating one night, I finally ejaculated. It was intense. The only thing I remember thinking was, "Finally!"
- age 17, Kansas
I was stroking myself slowly, feeling really good. Suddenly I couldn't breathe, my sight went dark, and a tingling rush of pleasure spread all over my body. It was so amazing!
- age 21, Canada
The first time I ejaculated it felt great, as it still does. I was 12 and had been "playing with myself" for a few years but not really masturbating as I do now. I knew something was going to happen, but I wasn't exactly sure what. So I was kind of surprised. I was watching TV in my room, absent-mindedly rubbing my erection, when all of a sudden, it happened. Awesome! But now I had a little mess to deal with. Just then, my mom knocked on my door and came right in. She saw me on the floor with my shorts open, penis erect, and hand full of semen. I wasn't embarrassed, because we are close. So I explained what had just happened. She got a wet washcloth and we talked about it while I cleaned up. We grew even closer after that. She buys hand lotion for me (her suggestion) and now always respects my privacy.
- age 15, Florida
I was masturbating with a more experienced friend at a sleepover and had *no* idea what to expect. We watched each other masturbate for a while when suddenly he began to speed up and ejaculated on his chest. As I watched him reach orgasm, I began to get an overwhelmingly sensitive feeling in my penis. It started at the head and slowly spread back to the shaft. I didn't know what was happening, but I didn't want it to stop. Suddenly, I ejaculated onto the wall and carpet in his room. It was like I had lost control of my body and shockwaves convulsed through me. When I went into the shower to clean up, I ejaculated again, bringing an even more intense series of shockwaves. After number two, I felt like I was floating – quite a rush!
- age 29, Missouri
"I thought my sinuses had backed up and
snot was spurting from my penis."
I was 10 years old when I first ejaculated – and confused. I thought my sinuses had backed up and snot was spurting from my penis – honestly. No one had told me about ejaculations, or anything else for that matter. I was on my own in discovering the confusing yet wonderful world of masturbation. That's why this site is so important for young people.
- age 42, Texas
The first time for me was quite weird. First, as a gift, my dad and I got my mom a massager that you put in a chair and it massages your back. So I got it and laid it on the bed. Then I got onto it, on my belly. All of a sudden, I got this weird sensation in my penis. It felt good, so I took off my pants and underwear and put my bare penis on it. Then within 30 seconds, I had ejaculated. It felt so awkward! Afterward, I smelled it and kind of tried to figure out what it was. Later, I talked to my dad, and he explained everything. My first time was definitely odd, but I found a good masturbation tool.
- age 15, Oregon
My first ejaculation was at the hands of a Pollenex showerhead as I approached 13. With all the hot water involved and my eyes closed, it wasn't quite as obvious as you might think. I remember opening my eyes right after my orgasm and feeling an odd tingle in my urethra. Stepping away from the jet of water, I discovered a slimy, sticky fluid drooling from my penis. This continued for a few minutes afterward. I was confused and scared, because from the slight burning sensation I felt in my crotch and the unusual fluid discharge, I was afraid I had broken something down deep inside me.
- age 25, Illinois
It felt like a volcano erupting out of my penis head.
- age 16, Pennsylvania
I felt intense pleasure and ecstasy, as if I was channeling all of my energy and strength into expelling my semen. Afterwards, I was exhausted, tired, and surprised at the incredible feeling – but definitely satisfied. I was lying on my bed when I first masturbated to orgasm, so the comfort of being naked in bed and the peace I felt after ejaculating, along with my state of feeling spent, made me very sleepy. I immediately dozed off into la-la land.
- age 19, California
I felt relieved that my body worked as designed. The thought of ejaculation fascinated me. The sensation was great. It felt like beads cascading out of the tube inside my penis. I then knew I was a normal male. Although I had seen farm animals couple and mate and knew the process, I was still concerned whether my body worked properly.
- age 61, Georgia
It was a fantastic experience that kind of reminds me of something big followed by relaxation – like a big volcano or a big bomb exploding. Then it felt relaxing, like water flowing gently down a creek. All in all, it was an awesome feeling.
- age 16, New York
It was a long time ago! I was late in starting to ejaculate – nearly 15 1/2 years old, but I still had an almost-permanent erection. I was home alone, sitting at my desk and doing my homework, when I just had to "do it" again. The result – my first-ever sight of my own semen. I felt happy that I had caught up with my pals, but then there was the mess to clean up. Before then, I would bring myself to 3 dry orgasms in rapid succession (it was the only way to get the erection to subside). After ejaculation, that was no longer possible. So later, I felt a temporary nostalgic sadness. All the same, it has been a lot of fun since then, and still is.
- age 72, United Kingdom