Dad's video

I grew up in a cool family. I'm the eldest in our only-boys family, and that the fact that we have no sisters makes us aware that we have nothing to hide from each other — we all have penises, and we know for a fact that we all masturbate. That's probably why we give each other enough privacy to do whatever we want to do.

My first time masturbating was at a very early age. I believe I was 11 when I discovered I could make myself feel really good by rubbing my genitalia. It felt so good I did it every day. I made myself orgasm, but I didn't ejaculate — that came when I was 13. At first I had no idea what it was, and it freaked me out a bit, but I kept doing it. I usually masturbated at night in my bed, and I cleaned up with my towel. As I became older I ejaculated more and more. That's when I stopped doing it in my room and moved my masturbation sessions to the bathroom. At this time I had started to grow hair and I felt mature about it. I think I had some emotional changes as well — for example, I began feeling guilty after I masturbated.

One time my dad "caught me in the act." I was embarrassed, but he began to talk about sex and masturbation, telling me it was normal and okay. This only made me more uncomfortable. My brother also caught me doing it once and wanted to know what I was doing. Of course I didn't dare tell him. I showed him a few years later when he was older.

A turning point in my puberty came when I was 15. I had a sleepover with my best buddy. We had known each other for years, and since he's an only child, I was the brother-like figure in his life. His parents both had to work that day, and he showed me a video he had found in his dad's closet. We watched the video and both had erections. That started us talking about masturbation and girls and sex. We were both curious about how the other was developing, so we dared each other to take off our clothes. We did and checked out each other's bodies. We compared penis sizes and stuff like that. The experience made us closer as friends. Since then we have masturbated together lots of times, and we still do. We became such good friends we started to do everything together. We went to the gym to work out together, strongly believing that hard bodies would give us a great sex life later on. Once we bought a pack of condoms and tried them on together since neither of us had ever needed them.

At age 16 I lost my virginity. I went to a party and got really drunk. There were lots of girls there, and people were having sex in front of everyone. Not knowing what I was doing, I had sex with two girls that evening. The next day I heard about what I did and felt really bad and guilty. I regret that night because I always thought my first time would be exciting, and that it would be with somebody I cared about. Since that day I haven't had sex, and I guess I'm just waiting for the right person.

I'm 17 now and masturbation plays a big role in my life. I'm closer with my buddy because of masturbation, it makes me feel good about myself, and it's the best way to relieve stress. Over the years my masturbation frequency has gone down. I used to do it up to 10 times a week, and now I do it only 2 or 3 times. I also used to try different techniques, but now I just use the "Fist." I'm also very happy I found out about JackinWorld, as I have learned a lot.

I hope people can relate to my experiences, because other people's stories have always been a great support for me. It's good to know you're not alone and that all teenage guys are going through the same things.