Avid wanker

I've been an avid wanker (yes I'm from the U.K.) for about 20 years. I started playing with myself at about age 13. I don't specifically recall too many details, but I do vividly remember the first time I tasted my own semen. I loved it. I didn't really get on with girls — I was a loner (still am to some extent), so my main solace was in my own body. I would wank 2 or 3 times a day. My record was 10, but obviously these ejaculations were very weak at the end of the day. I still felt the orgasmic jerks, though.

This fascination with my own penis continued through my late teens and onwards. I became more daring, wanking at friends' and relatives' houses, in public/school/college toilets, and even on the double-decker bus home from college. I got into pornography magazines (they're rather softer here than in the U.S.) and amassed quite a collection for a 17/18-year-old. I used them for most of my sessions. I used to fantasize about my brother masturbating with me, but that never happened — we seem to be so much more restrained in that way in the U.K. Even when I went to University and found a regular girlfriend, I still needed to get myself off to my own style and technique every now and again. We parted company and I went back to the magazines.

I then met the woman I married. Sex was good but infrequent, so I needed to continue my self-satisfaction. I went abroad to work for a year, which led me to regular sessions again, 1 to 3 times a day. I had access to hardcore videos and magazines, as well as a new medium: the Internet.

I still masturbate 4 or 5 times a week, almost always over some item I've seen on the Net. I've taken to looking for pictures of men, especially with semen, as I really want to see what I might look like. I also found Netmeeting and try to meet with people on there for a quick wank, but it usually takes too long to get hooked up with a likely person. To some degree I wish I could give it up, so I could then spend the time with my wife — but I find she doesn't really want to satisfy me, just her own desires. I get left out, so ....

I must end here, as just talking about masturbation has given me an erection that needs attention.