Recently, my friend and I masturbated in front of each other and ended up masturbating each other. It was great, but I keep thinking what we did was wrong. I don't think I'm gay but I get extremely aroused when I think of him stroking me and me stroking him. I have even considered having mutual masturbation sessions with other men. I believe it is just the taboo of the act that gets me off, because I have no attraction to men at all.
You don't necessarily need to be attracted to men to want to masturbate with them. You're attracted more to the idea of masturbating with them, and that seems to be more common than actually being attracted to male bodies. Ask yourself what it is that's causing you guilt: Is it that you may be uncovering bisexual tendencies, or that you're being unfaithful to your wife, etc. Once you've worked that out, decide from there if it's a good idea to continue. It may also be worthwhile for you to discuss your feelings with your wife, if you haven't already.
Do you find yourself masturbating more often during some seasons than others? Why?
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