I'll add to a collection for a week or two and then feel guilty and delete all of it. Two or three weeks later, on a late night, I'll start collecting again. The cycle will repeat itself, and I'll feel guilty or dirty and delete all of my pornography again. What are the emotional, physical, and religious consequences of masturbating with pornography for a teenage male?
I don't really feel comfortable giving a direct answer to your question, because the jury is still out on whether it's okay for young people to have access to pornography. Suffice it to say that many people – your parents probably included – would not approve. The bigger issue here, though, is the "cycling" you mentioned. It is a definite sign of pornography addiction, which is a real condition experienced by many people. It is obviously causing emotional difficulty for you, so for that reason alone you should speak to some kind of professional about it. Your guilt and shame about pornography and sexuality are more profound than most people's, so that needs to be dealt with. As a result, I would say that in your particular case, you should try to stay away from the pornography as much as possible, because it is certainly not helping matters.