I was about 13; I started rubbing my penis, and finally I ejaculated. I remember it kind of hurt, and the semen had a yellowish color. I did not want to do it again, and I haven't since. The only time I ejaculate is when I'm asleep, and I've never ejaculated with a girl. I'm too scared to masturbate, although I would like to try it again. Sometimes I'll start playing with myself, but I stop after a short time. How can I get over the fear of ejaculation?
Sorry you had that unfortunate experience. It's quite common, though, and ensuing ejaculations are usually not painful at all. (Quite the contrary!) The problem may have been that you were startled by the sensation and stopped halfway through the ejaculation, which can cause some discomfort. The next time you do it, remember to not stop rubbing until you have completely finished ejaculating. As for how to "get up the nerve" ... I have no idea. I'm sure many of your fellow JackinWorld readers would like to tell you, "Get over it!"