I'm not sure how old I was the first time I masturbated -- 10 or 11, I think. I hadn't started puberty yet, I know that much. I've always like to read, and one day I had run out of library books and was desperate so I was reading my mother's "MS" Magazine. There was an Ann Landers-type column, and some woman had written that when she was a little girl her mother caught her in the bathtub with the water running onto her clitoris. She was so upset that even as an adult she could take showers only. I don't remember what the expert's advice was, but I remember wondering why anyone in their right mind would let the bath water pour all over their privates. Well, there was one way to find out.
It was time for my bath anyway, so I got into the tub, knelt in front of the faucet, turned the water on, and held my penis under the water. MAN! I had no idea what masturbation was; all I knew was this felt GREAT. It never occurred to me to associate it with sex or to fantasize while I did it. My penis got hard, which scared me a little, but it felt too good to stop. All of a sudden the good feeling got even better and my penis seemed to tingle. Then the water seemed to hurt instead of feel good. I thought maybe it was too hot so I adjusted the temperature, but it still hurt. Now I was really scared. I turned off the water and finished my bath.
For the next few weeks every bathtime went like this. Eventually I learned it was even better if I thought about sexy things. After a while it took longer for me to have an orgasm; I still didn't know that's what was happening. So to prevent the bathwater from overflowing I'd pull out the stopper while I continued to run the water. One day my mom pounded on the bathroom door and told me that was enough water. I was frustrated because I hadn't orgasmed yet -- but she was really mad, so I had to turn off the water. I sat there in the tub with my little erection not knowing what to do. I kind of half heartedly touched it...that felt kind of nice. I pulled the skin over the head...that felt even nicer. It was too small to use my fist, but three fingers worked just fine. I continued to do this until BAM! that same tingly feeling came over me. Before, since my penis was always under the water, if anything came out it was washed away. This time I was able to see some clear fluid come out. That was when I finally realized that I was having "fake sex," and the clear stuff was my sperm, which meant my dad lied about it being white. (Later, of course, it was white.) I thought I had discovered this fake sex thing and was the only one in the world who knew about it.
Some time later my friend made the masturbation gesture with his fist, and I asked him what that meant. He told me and I finally realized I didn't need the bathtub -- I could do it anywhere. I still did it in the tub, but now I took showers and put a wash cloth over the shower head so the water fell down in a steady stream. I could stand under it (much more comfortable than kneeling) and hold my penis under the water. The orgasms were SO intense. By now I was fantasizing every time I did it, usually about Peter Brady from the Brady Bunch. I know, I know, it was weird, but what can I say.
I have never had a "wet dream," probably because I started masturbating at such a young age. I really wish I could have one, but if the only way to do it is to go without masturbating for a long time, then forget it!
One time I was swimming with the friend who made the masturbation gesture to me, and we started talking about masturbation and stuff. He asked if I would feel his penis. He was wearing swim trunks so I put my hand in and felt his penis and his pubic hair. Then we went into his room so he could take off the trunks. He had an erection -- and of course I did, too -- but his mom came home then so that was as far as it went.
This is getting long so I will stop now -- but next time I'll tell about the first time I did it with someone else.
Do you find yourself masturbating more often during some seasons than others? Why?
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Wet dream? Forget it
Gender:
Male