The penis game

I was exposed to masturbation at a very young age. I started doing it when I was 8, but back then I had no idea what I was doing. I just remember humping the couch and having this incredible feeling come over me every time I did it. I didn't know what it was called; I just referred to it as "the penis game." My religious parents would sometimes catch me doing it and warned me against it, not because they thought it was immoral, but because they thought I was too young to be exposed to sex. From that point on, I started being more careful and "played my game" only when my parents weren't around. Then I took a long break from my masturbation game (I don't really remember why) and started up again a few years later.

At this time, I was just going through puberty. I remember how excited I was when I saw my first pubic hair, and my changing penis fascinated me. One night, a friend of mine slept over and asked me if I had ever masturbated before. I had no idea what he was talking about, so he took out his penis and showed me. I remember seeing this supreme look of ecstasy on his face and this gooey white stuff shoot out of his penis when he was done. He told me how good it felt, and I immediately wanted to try it, too. Unfortunately, though, I was too young to ejaculate.

Around 8th grade I discovered a stash of my uncle's Playboys and this added a whole new excitement to my masturbation sessions. Ever since that day, I've never been able to masturbate without some form of visual aid. I used to fantasize being in the pictures with all those women and that always got me hot and horny.

I've had only three "wet dreams" in my life, mainly because I masturbate frequently and can't wait long enough to have one. I remember them all pretty vividly. In the first dream, I was lying naked on the couch, and a hot girl from my school was masturbating me until I ejaculated all over her face. The second dream involved a foursome — me, a guy friend of mine (the one previously mentioned), and two other girls from school. We were all on our way back from the school dance riding in the limo, and we had sex right there and then. The third dream was a bit puzzling to me, because it involved another guy. We engaged in mutual masturbation, and this got me thinking a little. Supposedly, dreams are a manifestation of our subconscious desires, so I thought that maybe my brain was trying to tell me something. I had never thought of masturbating with another guy before, but I thought, Hey — why not try it? Soon I would get my opportunity.

A few weeks later, a friend (not the same one as before) had a pool party and invited over a bunch of people from school. The girls changed in one room, and the guys changed in another. As we all got changed, I remember glancing around at everyone's penis. There were about six of us in there, and I took pride at being the one with the longest unit. We eventually got to talking and swapped sizes. I was 7 inches and only in the 8th grade. They were all fascinated with the size of my penis (as I was, too), and they all asked me if they could touch it. Of course I wasn't going to say no, so I let them. Well, one thing led to another, and we ended up having a big "circle jerk." It was so cool!

In high school I went out with several girls and lost my virginity at 15. My girlfriend always got a kick out of watching me masturbate, and it turned me on just as much as it did her. Sometimes she would reciprocate and let me watch while she masturbated herself, too.

When I got to college I had to adjust my masturbation habits. Living with a roommate was tough because I never had any privacy. The only time I could masturbate was in the shower, and even, then that was difficult because people would keep coming in and out. Usually, though, I just did it after my roommate fell asleep.

Now that I'm married and have children, I realize what an important part of my life masturbation has been. I sometimes felt guilty after doing it, but then I realize it's completely natural and healthy. Someday, when my sons get older, I'll tell them about masturbation and tell them there's nothing wrong with it — despite what others may say.