Though I learned to masturbate at a young age, my first ejaculations were the result of "wet dreams." At first, I didn't realize what was happening; I assumed I was wetting the bed or something, even though I was too old for that. I felt very embarrassed, and therefore, I did not tell my parents. The nocturnal emissions were somewhat enjoyable, despite the inconvenience of having to change pajamas in the middle of the night without waking up my little brother. I didn't remember anything the first time, but in a later incident, I woke up shortly afterward and my penis felt wonderful.
When I was young — 9 or 10 years old — my self-stimulation method consisted exclusively of rubbing against my mattress. I don't remember why I started doing it. Once, when I was lying down I guess, I just got an erection and it felt nice when I rhythmically rubbed myself up against the bed. I know it sounds counterintuitive, but these early experiences carried absolutely no sexual meaning for me. I didn't even do it often — maybe once every few months when I just happened to be alone in my bedroom. Though I found the practice enjoyable, I didn't really consider it all that important. If I was interrupted, I would just stop, and it didn't seem to bother me.
One day a few months after the "wet dreams" began, when I was about 12, I went about my solo rubbing activity. I was quite surprised when all of a sudden I felt a wetness coming a few moments after the usual conclusion. I quickly undressed, and I realized what had happened. (It also made some sense of my nocturnal emissions.) I figured out that the white, sticky substance is that stuff that they mentioned in health class. I continued to masturbate this way for many years.
When I got to college, everything changed. I knew that most guys didn't masturbate the way I did, and I always felt sort of weird about my mattress-humping method. I felt immature, kind of like I did it the way kids would do it. Over the years I had tried to switch to the "fist" method, the first time being a few months after I started ejaculating. My penis was still somewhat small, however, and I didn't find the experience very rewarding. Ejaculating in my underwear became very unpleasant, especially because I didn't want my mom seeing all the stains when she did laundry. She never really brought it up, but looking back, I'm sure she knew what I was up to.
Anyway, when I got to college, I finally had a good incentive to start using my hand: Internet pornography. At home I never had my own computer, and the family computer was in the living room — in view of everyone. But at college, I got my own computer and had a high-speed Internet connection. My desk wasn't right near my bed, so over about a month's time, I taught myself how to masturbate with just my hand. This made cleanup much easier.
Since I started college, my method hasn't changed much. Every once in a while, I return to the old method for old time's sake. I still find it enjoyable and much more like sex, but the "fist" method has its own advantages.
As a last note, I'd just like to say that many people have described masturbation experiences with members of both genders. My masturbation experiences have been solo my entire life, and I have no regrets about that. I've had an active sex life with several women in college, but masturbation hasn't really been a part of that. And though my friends and I would occasionally joke around about masturbation in middle and high school, no one seemed interested in sharing this experience beyond conversation. I'm actually kind of glad about that, because if I'd had to walk over to the bed and start going at it against the mattress, I think it would have led to a few jeers.
Do you find yourself masturbating more often during some seasons than others? Why?
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