Close cousins

For as long as I can remember, I had always been scared of masturbation. I thought it was morally wrong and disgusting to play with yourself, and plus, I was always scared of getting caught. But then I discovered JackinWorld merely by chance one day and learned it's okay to relieve yourself every once in a while if you need to.

I actually started masturbating when I was really little. I started doing it when I was about 7 years old. Of course I had no idea what I was doing, but I always had this remarkably good feeling in my penis, so I kept doing it. I would take down my pants and just rub my penis back and forth on the couch. The strange thing was I could never actually orgasm with an erection -- I could do it only if I was "soft." I got caught doing this many times, and my parents warned me to stop, because they said it was like I was having sex. I was still little and didn't know that much about sex, but I didn't care what my parents said -- they couldn't deprive me of this great feeling. From that point on I was very careful not to do it around my parents and did it only when they were out or sleeping.

As I got older, my masturbation slowed down. I don't know why, but I guess I just wasn't into it as much anymore. But around puberty, my hormones built up and I got into it more often. I wasn't really sure how to do it without rubbing my penis against the couch, or how to do it with an erection, because I had done it differently when I was little. So I just experimented playing with my penis. Eventually I orgasmed, and it was great -- even though I did not ejaculate that much yet.

Every time I masturbated, I needed something to get me started. I couldn't just think up situations and fantasies. I needed actually visual aids, like videos -- but this was hard to get at such a young age. One day I was fortunate enough to come upon some Playboys in my uncle's basement, and I took them home with me. I used them every day to masturbate after my shower, but I know now I was doing it all wrong. I did it too quickly: I'd take out my Playboys and masturbate, and within 2 minutes it was over.

For a while I thought I was the only person in the world who masturbated and was the only one fortunate enough to be able to achieve this wonderful feeling. My friends were either still too young to know about it or just weren't very open about it. Even today, they still don't talk about it much. I don't know why, though. I guess it's just because, like me, they're scared no one else does it and that it's disgusting to play with yourself.

One day when my cousin was sleeping over, he asked me if I masturbated yet. Of course, I denied it like anyone else would. But he was very open about it. He said he masturbated all the time, every day and every night. So of course, knowing this, I told him I did, too, and asked him if he wanted to do it together. He said sure, and we both took off our clothes.

His penis was a lot bigger and had more hair than mine, even though he was a few months younger than I was -- but I didn't care. After all, "it's not the size of the wave -- it's the motion of the ocean." Well anyway, we both got erections and started stroking ourselves. After a while, we switched, and I stroked his penis and he stroked mine. We did this for at least a half an hour, delaying our orgasms until we finally ejaculated. It was great.

After that day, every time my cousin came over, we would always masturbate together, sometimes masturbating each other and other times just masturbating ourselves. Every time he came over, we tried something different. We've never done anything oral or anal because we're both straight and agreed masturbation was the only thing we'd do with each other. Every time we did it, our ejaculations got better and better. With each session it felt more wonderful each time.